Teringat Kisah Lampau - Masa Kena Buat Induksi

Best jugak ada blog ni. Time time bosan macam ni boleh baca old entries. Kadang kadang tu aku ketawa sorang sorang bila baca balik, kadang kadang tak sabar sabar nak suruh Don baca

Alia: SAYANG COME HERE READ THISSS *sambil ketawa*
Don: What. It's not like I can understand.....
Alia: AHAHAHAHAHA THIS IS SOO FUNNY I AM SOO FUNNY
Don: 😑

hahaha stress mamat tu aku paksa dia baca.

Anyway, I was reading my posts written about my TM induction camp kat Terengganu. I think it was 3 weeks. Macam taik kena pergi induction before report for duty.

I had a miserable time there. It's just the whole premise is stupid. I don't mind training for a job, but to put us away in a dormitory with scheduled meal times, being treated like children, for 3 weeks was NOT cool.

So before I delve into why I think that's such a BAD idea, let me tell you that I honestly do not remember being specifically told that we were going away for 3 weeks.

Maybe my memory is fading, but I couldn't remember the guy (whom I'm assumign the HR guy) telling us to pack our bags for 3 weeks because we were going to another state. All he said was "you're going to have a work trip" then started smirking.

I'm pretty sure the reason why people knew it was coming, because TM induction is apparently well-known? Like you are EXPECTED to spend weeks in a college campus before reporting for duty and this is something that everybody knew.

So on the day of departure, I obviously only had the clothes that I was wearing. I didn't bring any luggage at all! Because I thought we were just going for a day trip or a training at our training center!

babi tau. tak de spender, tak de berus gigi, tak de shampoo, tak de baju seluar bra. semua la tak de.

Terpaksa call mak and mak la yang tolong pack kan. Nasib baik mak memang terrer bab bab packing ni. Laju je dia packed, so she got to Menara rebung on time.

I asked the guy kalau tak sempat naik bas macam mana? because I had to wait for my luggage kan. He just said "kalau tak sempat ---- I dunno. You kena buat your own arrangement to get to Terenggau yourself lah"

taik.

Oklah - I admit, it was MY fault for not clarifying it from the beginning. I should have asked them what does the "work trip" entail.

But I'm also partly blaming the organizer/HR for not being clear on what they expect us to do and their intent.

Ok now back to the induction camp itself.

Like I said before - we were treated like school kids. I mean yeah sure some of us maybe just graduated from colleges, but that doesn't mean they are kids?? We were adults and entering the professional world. And to be treated like children certainly defeats the meaning of "professional adults"!!

I was not as vocal as I am today. Thinking back, if I were to travel back in time, I'd have probably told them to start seeing us as adults. I mean you have to remember, the participants were Executives and non Executives. We were definitely not some college kids doing our industrial training or whatever.

I'd have probably lose my job there too HAHAHAHAHAHA

Tak masuk kerja lagi dah kena fired
Hahah

I also HATED that we had to stay in campus. It was the condition of the hostel itself - it was disgusting!! The rooms were dark and gloomy, the shared bathroom was urghhhhhh disgusting. I feel sorry for college kids that had to endure that.

Macam mana aku survived during my college years pun I dunno. hahahaha
Geli geleman aku nak tido dlm hostel.

I also don't know if I can handle having a roommate anymore. My roommate right now is my own husband, so kalau nak naked in front of him ke apa, it's not a big deal la kan hahaha. Tapi kalau ada someone else as your roommate, ehhhh susahnya. Kekok.

And now kalau pergi outstation ke apa, I'd have my own hotel room. Tak perlu kongsi bilik hotel.

Ohh the fanciest hotel room I've been was probably the hotel in India. 3 minggu beb duduk dlm hotel tu. It was a big room, toilet dia was to die for, ada balcony tapi you wouldn't want to open your balcony door. HAHAHAH.

Asap and honks every second. Pening kepala aku. My housekeeper pun bagus, dia asyik buat animal towels. So aku pun bagi la tips - ada dlm $1 - $3 je sehari. So all in all, I gave her/him dlm $40 kot. Untung kauu

Sebelah hotel ada mall - i think it's one of their fancy malls la kot sebab banyak medium to high end stores. Nak masuk mall kena security check point dulu. Oh nak mausk hotel pun kena security check point.

Eh.
Macma biasa, aku suka off on a tangent. Kejap topic A, kejap topic B, tiba tiba selit topic F.
hahahahaha

Sedih

Shit la. I made the mistake of re-reading my old posts in this blog. Sampai la tang post this:

Charity is Charity

Meleleh air mata gua baca balik what I wrote uolsssss!

Emosiiiiii

Because I remember exactly what happened and how I felt!

It's a shitty feeling when people think you're the reason why this household won't be able to eat for the week.

It's a shitty feeling when you feel like you're unwanted, where you don't feel belong. 

It's a shitty feeling when you can't do anything to help the situation and you yourself need some help. 

Remembering back, it was sooooo bad. I felt soooo fucking alone and foreign. Terkontang-kanting aku sensorang kat situ, unable to defend myself. 

I don't want to relive that moment. 

I also haven't told my family about it, there's really no reason to anyway. I mean apa diorg boleh buat pun kan? Plus, that was yeaaarsss agoooo. Now I'm no longer a moocher and I can support myself. 

Sekarang aku pulak yg kasi duit monthly for the parents in law. Which I don't mind, it's like payback la kan. They've been helping me all these years so i don't mind helping them now. Both of them are retired now. 

But guess what, not only ahkakipar tu masih lagi terkapai-kapai tak cukup duit itu ini, now we have adik ipar pulak yg setiap bulan tak cukup duit itu ini. Tapi setiap weekend aku tengok diorg keluar berjoli. Sewa rumah bil elektik air semua tak pernah cukup. So guess who la diorg korek duit? Of course la mak mertua haku kan. And guess where la mak mertua dpt duit utk support anak anak dia tu? Of course la dari aku kan. 

So in a way, the reason sebab rumah diorg masih ada heater, power, TV, phone bill bagai, semua bersumber dari duit gaji aku. 

now who's the moocher bitch.

Sekian. 

Walrus

Ok aku macam tak de update yang munasabah ataupun yang berbaloi korang nak baca. Tapi jari jemari halus mulus ai ni gatal nak update blog. Rasa ala-ala productive sikit la, walaupun entry ke laut. Tapi pedulikkkkk la kan. Nasib korang la kekadang dapat entry sampah mcm ni. (eh hari hari pun entry sampah)

Short update:
Mak walrus ni has been diagnosed as pre-diabetic.

Yaassss. I am so unhealthy that I had to have the lab results hit me on the face.

I'm not diabetic yet, so tak perlu nak cucuk insulin bagai (I think that's a different type of diabetes or something? Ntah, gua tak arif lagi pasal medical ni). But I'm getting there if I don't change my lifestyle.

My doctor refused to put me on pills sebab she said I'm still young to be depending on pills. She also said "GET THAT BUTT MOVING GIRLLLL" (yes, my doctor is hip and awesome. She's also young). So I'm trying to constantly move during the day.

Nak terus terus jump onto the exercise routine lapanblas jam sehari tu memang tak la. That's too high of a goal. Tak realistic. So instead of signing up for unrealistic goals like that, I plan to actively move throughout the day. I will try to get on the treadmill for at least 20minutes and have my daily goal of 8000 steps.

I will increase once I'm more acquainted with the activities.

My health coach (yes y'all. Ahkak ada health coach. uols. She's a dedicated health coach at my workplace, so you can book her time slot), she gave me a fitbit to try. I told her I don't want to splurge on something that I don't know if I'd like it. So now I have this fitbit on my wrist. Macam best pulak tengok the number of steps tu. Aku ni memang jenis competitive, so if I see my coworkers with a lot of steps, I will try to beat their numbers. My health coach cakap, this could work then!

So we shall see berapa lama aku tahan.

Tengok tengok besok malam I will stuff my face with a cheesecake.

Eh, tetiba kempunan cheesecake.

HAHAHAHA baru sat tadi cakap pasal healthy activities bagaiiiiiii, tapi dah dasar pelahapppppp



Ok bai.

LOL

Ramai sangat yg butthurt when I wrote my previous entry.

Korang ni butthurt sebab kena setepek kat muka ke? Ke korang ni saja-saja je nak trolling sebab you guys are a bunch of shitlords?

Kalau tak suka my language, tak payah baca.
Kalau tak agree with my points, tak payah baca.
Kalau tak suka how blunt I am, tak payah baca.

Apa susah?

I didn't force you to come here and read.

This is MY sphere, I have every right to bitch, or to cry, or do whatthefuckever I want.
I don't go to your page, shitting on your entries just because I don't agree with your POV or the way you deliver them.

Now if you want to bitch about me in your blog, go right ahead. It's your prerogative.

Just don't come here, and shit on my readers who have the balls to use their real ID, instead of hiding under anonymous like you.

Tak payah ler marah depa, depa tak bersalah pun.
Focus your hatred towards me.

Dah dah. Let bygones be bygones.
Tak payah gaduh-gaduh, mari make love!

Eh?

LOL



So mari lah kita start by planting a kiss on your beloved one!

End.


(Eh, takkan la aku nak letak gambar naked kot. Maunya pengsan 8tahun korang nanti)

LOL

Idiots

Weather kat sini mcm tahik.

Semalam sejuk nak mampos, sejuk sampai menusuk tulang

Hari ni, panas gilos. 

Ok lah, tak der la sampai 40C, tapi dlm 20-25C mcm tu 

It's March so spring is coming!

I know I'm gonna miss this winter 

Cause it's the first winter since I got here, and secondly, mak walrus ni memang berdarah sejukkk, I need cold weathaa to keeps me sane. 

Hahahahaha

It's one thing la over here in the south, kalau winter tu tak de sejuk mana pun. I mean yeah it's still cold, but tak de la miserable

......or maybe tak miserable sebab cinta hati sentiasa ada di sebelah??

Haaaaaaaaaaaa

Good point Alia.

Good point.

Ok Alia is saikosis. Suka ber-monolog. 

Yer la, I don't actually have any script of what to write.

I usually just write what I'm thinking as I'm typing it. 

Sebab tu selalunya kalau nak cerita, memang tak der jalan cerita.

Semua tunggang langgang.

Memang kenot be a writer la mcm ni.

Anyway, tadi I was browsing pictures on my PC untuk tepek here, cause we all know you guys don't read :p 

and I found this instead.

I mean I know some of you yg added/followed me on FB may have probably read about this, but I'm gonna tepek it anyway! 

Sesiapa yg ada me on your list would know that I'm not the quiet type...I speak my mind just like I do here on my blog. And if I see something so stupid going on my newsfeed, I'd write about it. 

Sebab tu aku rasa ramai tak suka aku...... Hahahahaha

Eh lantak la, your loss.

Anyway, ni time Christmas hari tu, When stupid religious people in Malaysia was in the limelight again....

I wrote this on my status:

Pastu muncul la this status on my newsfeed...:

I'm also not the type yg duduk diam bila orang talk about me. 

Aku rasa dia butthurt sebab when I called these people "idiots", dia terasa sebab dia pun tergolong dalam golongan yg sama! 

Hahahahahah 

I mean that's the only way to justify the reason why she was being so fucking defensive!

I mean I have every reason to call these people idiots sebab org org mcm ni la yg kononnya paling alim warak sampai common sense pun no longer works.

Christians tak de masa la nak dok convert Muslims.

Yahudi also tak de masa la nak dok gulingkan Muslims. 

They have other things to worry and be concerned about.

Only Muslims je yg sebok dok fikir macam mana nak convert non-Muslims. 

So they automatically think others are doing the same?!

Melayu ni mmg perasan diri bagus that everybody is out to convert or gulingkan bangsa Melayu Islam ni.

Anyway, back to her, I had to remove her walaupun she's family, sebab she attacked me personally when she questioned my religious morality on whether I perform my prayers or if I know the direction of the qibla or do I know how to recite shahadah (my friend pointed out that she spelled "2 kali masyahadah instead LOL - oh the irony!! so much win there).

It was also very offensive when she and her friend called out that I'm still a "child" because they assumed that I didn't know why Christmas is celebrated. 

Based from my arguments and the way I presented my points across, I don't know who in the right mind would think that I'm uneducated???? unless if she was talking about herself, then yes! 

Her arguments were baseless, context-less and she even contradicted herself in just one sentence (can celebrate Christmas but can't because there's a church and a bible??)

Aku tak paham tang ni....apa kena mengena church and bible?

I hope she's not one of those people yg fikir just because you've stepped in into a church or touched a bible you're automatically a Christian!!!

.....wait, I think she's definitely this type of a person!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH

Oh God.

Ketawa sampai meleleh air mata.

Okok ok.

I know I'm being mean.

Anyway, I had to remove her cause people like these are unwarranted and dangerous to the society. They'd uncritically accept whatever unreasonable dogmatic ideas that come to them. As long as ada "Islam" or "Muslim", main ikut je.

I don't keep sampah macam ni in my list. 

I'm answering your question

I don't even know why I bother to write this entry. Cause it's really none of everyone else's business and the fact that I've already divulged more of my private affairs online should be enough for you lot.

But considering there are a handful of my friends got into a fight to the point of deleting each other from their list warranted me to butt in.

As some of you know, I was supposed to nikah back in Malaysia after I get my visa parole which usually would only take about 3 months maximum. But we hit a curb in the process so had to delay. And we've decided to perform our nikah here in the US.

I don't know how the hell (or "why" would be the correct question) some of you even had the decency to badly ASSUME anything about my marriage. Sure I don't talk much about my whole marriage thingymagic online (cukup la my family saja yg tau of the details) but that doesn't mean you should assume shit outta your ass and kawan kawan yg the last time we talked was in high school tetiba je cakap:

"As a Muslim, I'm concerned for my sister in the same religion".
"Aku dah tanya ostad dan mmg nikah Alia tak sah." 
"Aku tak nak Alia diselubungi dosa"

Bullshit.

What kind of details did you give your ostad?
Where did you get the details?
Cause I certainly didn't tell you.

So what does mean?
FITNAH.

What does make you?
PEMFITNAH.

So does that make me LESS than you?
No. 
You are worse.
You carry the sins of a fitnah.

How the hell did you know that my nikah was invalid?
Because your ostad told you so? After you fed him with some bullshit facts (or none in fact)

If your ostad made a judgement call without all of the facts presented to him...then...I dunno why you'd still look up to him.

Because my imam that officiated my nikah certainly would not officiate it IF none of the requirements for syarak was met.

An imam. Checked.
Surat perwakilan Wali from my dad. Checked.
Mas kawen. Checked.
2 Male Muslim Witnesses. Checked.

So please lah. Lain kali kalau nak tuduh sembarangan, please make sure you've got all of the facts rights.

I've got friends that came up to me and ASKED me personally, instead of depending on someone else who knew as much as you did in the first place.

Aku tak paham, kenapa nak gadoh just because you didn't know the whole story?

I don't mind if someone comes up to me and asks. I don't bite. But to publicly humiliate me, then you deserve NONE of my forgiveness.

What makes YOU THINK you're better than me?
Kenkonon nak memperjuangkan sisters sesama Islam.
Kenkonon you "care" about my well being.

Please la. Sebenarnya kau busybody kan?



I wish I would have taken some pics of the ceremony so I can shove it to your face. Tapi there were only 5 of us there there (us, imam and 2 witnesses) it was awkward.

Dah enough. I don't want to talk about this anymore. Mari la kita memblog tentang happy happy stuff ya!

Alia rants again. It's a rantful Thursday.

I'm so bad at keeping promises. I know I promised a whole lot of you that I'll update my blog, tapi sampai kesudah tak de updates ye tak.

Anyway, hari ni aku nak menaga.

Aku ada sorang kawan ni, orangnya bertudung, cantik, ayu, cakap pun lemah lembut, petite, so nampak luarannya macam sweet sweet girl gitu.

Tapi sekali dia update status dalam FB....aku rasa nak delete dia dalam hidup aku (haha dramatis tak).
Dia suka tulis isu isu racism, provokasi, and hateful.

Kawan kawan dia yang selalu komen pun satu species.

Mula mula dulu aku buat dek je, tapi makin lama makin sakit hati (dan sakit mata).

Orang macam ni la aku panggil hipokrit.

Cerita pasal agama pung pang pung pang, tapi very racist!
Tak ke agak kelakar kat situ?

I thought Islam taught you to be humble and understanding?
Kau share article article dari ustaz itu la ini lah, kasi nasihat agama kat orang lah, tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.........


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Aku perasan these self-claimed pious people are so violent, dari segi perwatakkan dan perbuatan.
Banyak kali aku nampak dalam timeline, how people would threaten someone for saying/doing the most stupid shit.

Contoh macam kes that woman and her dogs. I admit, I don't know the whole story (nor care to dwell further) tapi we've got these keyboard warriors yang kononnya mempertahankan agama (coz apparently she insulted the religion) fucking threatened to kill her?!?!?!

What the fuck is wrong with you!?

You claimed that she insulted your religion (of peace. OHH THE IRONY) and that gave you the rights to take someone's life?!?!?

Who the fuck do you think you are?? God??

I'm so fucking tired having to explain to my non-muslims friends on WHY MUSLIMS ARE SO VIOLENT (upon the smallest issue!) that they're just protecting the religion.

How fucking stupid does that sound?

Here you are, talking about bashing someone's head on the pavement because her view differs from yours.
She wasn't hurting anyone physically, she didn't hurt your family, she didn't hurt you, she didn't make your life miserable, she didn't get you fired or having something taken away from you, then why the fuck would you threaten her??


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Also, my dear friends and family, even if Islam says that dogs are najis/unclean (not haram), that doesn't mean you can treat them bad! That doesn't mean you have to be abusive towards them! That doesn't mean that you can't help them when they're in trouble ie. about to drown! Please have a little mercy

I've got cousins that are so....I should say, hateful towards dogs. And I just don't know how to educate them that dogs aren't objects that you can simply kick or throw around.

They've mingled with stupid people and became, well, stupid.
They don't even bother to study or do a little research first.

Look, it's a different matter if you're afraid of dogs, cause you know, some ARE scary, but I've got no beef with you if you try to stay away from them and not do anything harmful ie: run over them with your car


Dogs are usually friendly and curious creature and just want to sniff you.
Unless if they come running towards you barking with a mouth full of dripping saliva. That just means that they're crazy and possibly have rabies. lol

If that happens, THEN you run. haha

Cute dog wants to be patted

Rabid dog wants to kill you