Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Irony

I have accepted the fact that I have to deal with constant stares dari strangers no matter where I go. Chewah, dengar macam ayat berlagak, but trust me, ini bukan kes nak berlagak ke apa, cause I definitely KNOW why they stare.

I know it's not my kejelitaan nor my super model physique (batuk batuk), but instead, it's my RACE.

People over here kan berlagak AMERIKA NAMBER WAN but secara realitinya, majority of the masyarakat sini pon sekolah pon tak habis kan. They've never been OUTSIDE of their own country, sebab tu they have nothing to compare with. Balik balik Amerika. Balik balik Amerika.

Sebab tu bila aku cakap I'm from Malaysia, standard reply is "You speak Tagalog then?"

But if I don't say anything, they'd speculate that I'm from Mexico, pastu nak prektis cakap (possibly broken) Spanish that they learned in middle school.

Si. Si.

Hari tu I met a bunch of Vietnamese people yg dah tinggal sini half of their lives, asked me "how come you can speak English fluently considering you've only been here for a couple of months?" (gramatically corrected here).

Kalau boleh nak je aku cakap "how come you cannot speak English fluently if you've been living here for half of your life?"

Tapi di sebabkan mereka tanya dengan baik dan jujur, tak der la aku nak mengeji pulak kan.

But seriously lah, I noticed ramai je Asians/Spanish yang migrated here (or born, I dunno lah) English masih lemah. Why ah? Bukan English is a worldwide language ke? Lain lah kalau main language kat sini Afrikaan (eh, tetiba afrikaan kan).

Ok sebenarnya aku dah tersasar hala tuju, I wanted to write cerita lain, tapi jadi cerita lain haha.

Anywayyy, I know they stare at me possibly thinking "PIPOL LOOK. A SPANISH LADY WIF A WHITE MAN LOLZ".

I live in a redneck state, so population untuk Spanish adalah sangat nipis, kalau ada pon, most of them are criminals.

I've got jelingan hebat daripada younger girls (teenages kah kah kah). I dunno lah diorg meluat because I'm with a white man (their race) ataupon mereka dengki tengok tetek aku.

Haha!

Of couse lah Don akan menegakkan benang yang basah cakap they're not looking at me, but they're staring at him because he's so good looking people can't take their eyes off him.

Oh tolong lah. Bernanah telinga dengar ayat tu.

Kah kah kah!

Bukan sahaja kat sini I've got those deadly stares, kat Malaysia lagi teruk. Those people would actually jeling at you and sorok muka sambil kutuk dengan suara kuat. Kalau nak kutuk tolong lah perlahankan sikit suara tu. Kalau nak kutuk sampai anak tekak terkeluar, might as well just come up to me and SAY IT IN FRONT OF MY FACE.

Boleh dapat tempeleng free sekali.

I've been called "perempuan tak sedar diri" by mat rempit yang duduk tepi jalan wasting his life away.

I've been called "perempuan macam ni lah yang merosakkan bangsa Melayu" by mat rempit yang possibly ada bohsia keliling pingang dan bermandikan liquor kenkonon nak berlagak 'western'.

I've been called "perempuan perasan lawa" because I'm not pretty dan gemok by skanky girls yang berpakaian macam Britney Spears tapi muka Jawa.

Excuse me?

Ada aku terlompat lompat jerit I AM SO AWESOME I AM SUPERIOR BECAUSE MY BF IS WHITE?

Ada aku jeling kat your partner dengan muka HAHA KAU DAPAT LAKI JAWA?

ADA?
ADA??

I don't talk shit about you why must you talk shit about me?

Just because I've settled for a different race doesn't mean that I've been running away from men yang berbangsa Melayu ni. It's just LELAKI MELAYU TANAK AKU.

They want Gisele Bundchen.

They want Adriana Lima.

They want Jessica Alba.

Ada pernah dengar diorg cakap "WOW QUEEN LATIFAH IS HOTNESS".

ADA? ADA??

They want something beyond their tahap. Potential candidate depan mata buat buat tak nampak because I'm huge, brown and short.

And those mat rempits fucking KNW this is true, still had the guts to say those shit to me? Adakah mereka dengki sebab tak dapat minah salleh/Brazilian (Bundchen, Lima, Alba) sebab tu this fat, stubby brown girl can't possibly has a bf?

For them, having a man that loves me, cares for me, sees me beautiful is something beyond my grasp.

Aku ni hodoh sangat ke.

It hurts them too much to see me happy.

I HAVE been attracted to local men, it's not like lahir-lahir je terus cakap "SCREW YOU MALAY MEN, I'M GOING FOR THE BIG BOYS"

Hahahah.....

Dah diorg rejek saya, takkan nak terhegeh-hegeh lagi?

True that I don't have much experience with local men, so it's not fair lah kalau aku cakap all Malay men pentingkan paras rupa. I know some are very the baik oneeee, very the gentleman oneee. So silalah jangan butthurt sangat.

Tapi dah jodoh saya dengan dia, what to do. (Wah, dah jodoh jodoh, kawen pon belum..haha!)

Ok nak main The Sims 3.

BAI!

26 comments:

  1. salam alia...

    apa yg ko ckp dlm n3 kali nih takde yg tak betol. infact 100% benar...

    sume pasal mentaliti. ko ada baca blog kak izan yg ber-asben-kan italian guy? lani dia dok sana.

    tapi dia penah tulis, if dia balik KL, jalan2.. mmg mereka2 yg 'alim giler' tuh sume ktuk depan2 dia supaya dia bleh dengar..

    sampai ada yg ckp "waa kak, best dapat laki mat salleh malam tadi??"

    wtf.
    (hohoho.. aku marah sungguh la tuh..~)

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  2. salam alia,

    sy ni silent reader awak. btul ape awk ckp. mmg lelaki melayu nk yg lawa, nk yg perfek, sdgkan diri sindiri bukan elok sgt pon.

    plg meluat kt mesia ni adalah perempuan yg wanna-be wanna be ni. huhh.

    biar pa org kata alia, jnji kita bahagia.

    yg melayu pon bukan btul sgt pon nk kutuk awak. let them be.

    =)

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  3. malay men cant handle big girls, simple as that.

    Asians in general have this sick mentality
    fair = beautiful
    thin = PERFECT

    i love my big ass and big boobs... secretly those malay guys that prefer skinny girls tu wish their girl have something to grab on rather afraid of breaking them. So next time you see those useless rempit losers who says shit like that again just smile and be happy you dont have to end up with them =D

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  4. Hoh. Aku agree 1000% -
    Ramai la kenkawan lelaki aku yang muka pecah rumah tapi tak sedar diri nak bertemankan orang secantik Gisele & Adriana. Pastu mengeji aku and kata aku gemuk.

    Oi sedar diri sikit boleh takkk??

    Pastu bila aku jalan berpegang tangan dgn mat saleh lagi sekali kena keji dan dikata sudah berseks.

    Sukati aku la kan..

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  5. hi there,

    HAHA sungguh kelakar k, bab bab kutuk those rempits =)

    the things is, mentality kite mmg 1st utk kutuk then only we'll try to understand

    i may be the one yg akan stare but i will say "gila cool ade bf mat salleh" haha cause i know dieorg ni kalo syg org mmg betul2 =)

    peduli kan ape org ckp tp ye la kdg2 tu rase mcm nk ckp "hey, wat ur staring at!!" kan? hahaha

    loved ur blog =p it's the 1st thing i check when i'm ol =p

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  6. hi there,

    HAHA sungguh kelakar k, bab bab kutuk those rempits =)

    the things is, mentality kite mmg 1st utk kutuk then only we'll try to understand

    i may be the one yg akan stare but i will say "gila cool ade bf mat salleh" haha cause i know dieorg ni kalo syg org mmg betul2 =)

    peduli kan ape org ckp tp ye la kdg2 tu rase mcm nk ckp "hey, wat ur staring at!!" kan? hahaha

    loved ur blog =p it's the 1st thing i check when i'm ol =p

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  7. You duduk North Carolina mmg ah Americans sane kampung. Mcm lah org2 kampung kat Malaysia. Don't jugde the US and Americans just by one state and The US is huge. If you go up north, where there are more liberal minded people I'm sure you'd find more intelligent Americans. Dah sah2 state tu state kampung, you said it yourself red neck area. Mmg lah org2 you jumpe semua mcm tu. Southern states ramai kampung.

    Btw...seriously lah...who gives a rats ass what other people think. You've found someone who loves you and appreciates you and can accept you as who you are. Melayu2 yang can't accept tu...biar lah diaorg. Dah sah2 tahu mmg they all jealous. Malay men ni semua ego aje lebih...tapi otak tak gune. That said...of course not all malay men are terrible there are a few gems out there. Mcm lah other races too there will always be idiots no matter what race, we just have to be smart enough to find the good ones.

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  8. Korea ni pun sebenarnye racist melampau negara die..
    kite ni kulit lain sikit and bukan kulit mat salleh mmg pandai mcm nk mkn orang..
    pandai yang sungguh annoying.. siap selisih boleh pusing belakang tgk kite.
    plus sbb aku pakai tdung sini dia laaaaaagilaaa wayyyyy terok bila memandang!!! hahaha..
    nak-nak summer time.. fuhhhh..macamla aku ni tak berbaju bile keluar..padahal pakai da ckup alim dan sopan..
    korean people pun look high to all mat mat minah puteh ni but dorg pk yang org kulit2 brown ke hitam ni ke sume dtg negare die carik duit like Indon Bangla paki etc
    bila cakap dr Malaysia..
    they dont know where Malaysia is but they know Ampang.. and Mount Kinabalu ..why? Ampang ni dah jadi Korea Town dah.. and org Korea suka hiking and Mount Kinabalu tu dorg igt kat Borneo..

    BODOHH !!

    gheisssh.. pastu kalo mentaliti org melayu ni.
    kalo gemok xlawa muke innocent tak layak belajar pandai-pandai tak layak ade bf hensem2 tak layak pergi shopping complex dating dgn bf..
    waddefak..
    ituuu la saye rase bile kat msia..
    haihhh...

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  9. hi, i'm your silent reader...love ur blog.

    mmg btul pun apa yg ada dlm entry awk kali nih. kalau org perempuan yg kurg dr segi rupa, badan besar, n etc...mcm2 mengata. mcm diaorg tuh perfect sgt. diaorg kene ingat, semua ini pemberian Allah...Dia yg bagi n kalau Dia nak tarik balik...anytime jer kan...rupa yang muda lawa or hensem tuh takkan berkekalan sampai mati. akan tua juga.

    saya pun penah kena dulu, kalau berkawan dgn lelaki yg ada rupa skit...huh, mcm2 suara sumbang yg leh dengar la. "dia pakai bomoh kot", "rupa x lawa tp guna jampi2 kot"...eh2, what the hell la kan. org yg ngata mcm tuh dah jatuh fitnah kan. kalau tak diampunkan, tunggu la korg kat SANA sampai aku tiba.

    ngata2 org, mcm jer knal org tuh 100% luar n dalam. padahal baru jer terserempak kat mana2...sebelum nak ngata2 org, g cermin diri sendiri dulu kan. ntah2 org yg diumpat tuh, jauh lebih baik dari org yg mengumpat.

    maaf sbb type panjang sgt kat comment box alia nih.

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  10. hmm tu la kan. lelaki melayu ni sometimes kalau ada rupa sikit, mula la perasan bagus. i pun penah kena.

    i have been said nasty stuff yg i ni muka melayu kampung, gemuk & hitam. tak sesuai couple ngan org yg putih, tinggi, hensem. dan org subang yg kaya raya (haha my own experience ni).

    hello, dah aku ni mak bapak melayu.
    takkan muka cam mat salleh pulak. and i'm from javanese descendant and not embarassed by it.

    senang citer, good looks & harta don't last forever la.

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  11. Hi Alia,

    I hear you girl! I lived in the US for 12 years (in a big city too!) and the stares and questions I got were unbelievable.

    People were SHOCKED that I came from Malaysia and that I could "afford" a trip all the way to the US.

    Someone even proudly told me that she saw a documentary on CNN about how all Malaysians live on trees and how amazing it was that I can now live in real houses - I am not even kidding!

    Mainly they were stunned that I spoke fluent English. They couldnt believe how well I spoke. When I said English was my first language, they were shocked.

    One of them asked if it was my first time outside of my country. When I said "No, I've been around the world a couple of times", I think they might have had a coronary! You're right in saying most of them have never been out of their own state, much less out of their country. In that sense, I believe Malaysians are better off.

    I hate to say Malay men are scum, but the ones I have met are. I can probably count the number of decent Malay men I know on both hands. Coming from a mixed-race family, I dont look the slightest bit Malay but the minute I go out with a Malay man, the sarcastic comments start.

    "Pegi cari bangsa sendiri tak boleh ke..nak jugak amik orang Melayu"

    "Kesian budak Melayu tu, makwe dia hitam. Nanti anak mesti tak cantik"

    When I dated a Chinese guy, one Chinese lady even came up to me at a mall and told me to leave their men alone.

    But what I cant stand is how the women have to be putih, kurus, pakai tudung, sopan santun & tak belajar tinggi while the men look like they should live under a bridge. Dah la kurang ajar, busuk plak tu. Lagi nak cari gf perfect la konon. One particular Malay guy even told me I would be SO beautiful if only I was fairer.

    I would love to date Malay men, but they're intimated by intelligent, independent women. Takut sangat kalau bini lagi pandai nanti tercabar kelelakian dia. Pfft!

    Sorry for taking up such a long space here. Just needed to rant about what's been bugging me my whole life, here in the US and Malaysia.

    Have a fab holiday! Say hello to Don for me! :)

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  12. hi..
    i am your SR ...

    i couldn't aggree more with your comments on malay guy..mereka memang begitu, kurus=cantek, putih=cun..meluat kan..

    tapi,aku juga sedih,bila benda yg tak elok/tak lawa, orang associate kan dengan Jawa..tak cun jer,org komen"tak sedor muka macam jawa etc", seolah-olah, semua orang jawa tak bagus,hodoh,dan harus jadi bench mark untuk kutukan.
    aku jawa jugakkkk..a successful banker working in foreign land ,jadik,bila org associate kan jawa dgn rempit,jadik bench mark untuk hodoh/cantek( seolah2x hina sgt jadi jawa,bukankah kami jugak manusia..dan,takde ker pure melayu yg muka hodoh?tapi orangtak kutuk kan?),i feel pain in my chest ..and sometimes i do ask myself.."salah kah aku di lahirkan jawa?hina sgt kah?..kenapa kalo melayu pure yg perangai macam gampanggg tak kena hina pulak?..bagusssssssssss sgt kah diorang nih...???takde yg jadik mat repmit ke depa ni?..takde yg hodohhhhhh ke depa nihh...padahal..ramai aja!!

    sorry aku luahkan perasaan kat sini..i just feel hmm...oklah..adiosss.

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  13. giler la ramai buat luahan perasaan kat n3 nih, heheheh!

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  14. giler best cerita kali ni..salute to u..org2 yg suka kutuk org ni..kita kene ckp cmni jer.."ada aku kesah??"..

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  15. urm.....

    yelaa... laki mesia x suke pompuan itam and gumuk.. mcm taik kan...saye sampai skrg x kawin2, makcik@kepochi sebok suh kuruskan badan.. sbb bdn besar xde org nak katenye.. maklum la..

    putih = cantik
    kurus = perfect

    kan?

    T___T

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  16. Gosh, ramai betul silent readers :)

    By the way, next time if kau dengar orang cakap macam tu lagi depan kau, kau cakap je macam ni..

    "Pe-gi-la-ma-ti!"

    My fav line :)
    Pergi la mana-mana pun, kita still akan jumpa orang-orang yang tipikal macam tu. Mentaliti macam tu tak kemana. Tak semestinya kurus tak kena caci, OK. Aku ni contoh terbaik.. I also have my own stories but then lantak la, "pe-gi-la-ma-ti" dengan orang-orang yg macam ni.. i care less

    :)

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  17. Ola!
    I'm ur silent reader, yes one of 'em. rasa nak kongsi pendapat, yes, been there, done that. aku penah dikutuk oleh mat2 rempits dulu masa belajar sbb my bf was a foreigner. nak buat cemana? org local reject aku habis2an. pasal kita tak cantik, muka selambak, kulit jerawat, tak pandai bepesen. not only the youngsters, makcik2 yg dah 3 suku umur nak say bye2 to this world pun boleh mengucap dengan kuatnya waktu kiterang naik teksi. Salahke berpacaran dgn foreigner ni?

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  18. Cokelat Rawks:
    I hear you I hear you.

    Kan? Bukannya kita tak pernah suka kat local guys, orang cakap, "belum cuba belum tahu" tapi ni DAH CUBA DAN DAH TAHU..haha...

    Agaknya diorg ingat jsut because they're foreigners, diorg jahat/jahil. But I think that's not fair sebab kalau aku berjalan dgn lelaki melayu pon, tak semestinya dia 100%alim.

    Dan jugak tak semestinya foreigners ni jahat laknat, they could have been seorang muallaf yg sungguh baik, alim serta hormat.

    Bak kata orang, don't judge a book by its cover kan!

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  19. Alo..
    Zee baru terjumpa blog Alia and I like it very2 much! :)
    Owh, jangan kata2 jawa ye sebab hubby saya jawa tapi rupa and body bak vin diesel..hot gitew! jangan jelessss...hahaha
    tak pasal2 masuk blog orang ranting all of this.. :D
    Just want to say most of it i understand how you feel so you're not alone.. ^_^

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  20. Zee, it's ok! I do that all the time!

    No lah, I wasn't talking bad about Jawa (I have Jawa blood too!), it's just I dunno hmm, kenapa kita kena panggil "muka jawa" yek?? Hahahaha sori, aku pon confused kejap.

    Maybe because when they say "muka jawa" it literally means "Muka orang Malaysia". Atau muka koman.

    But yeah true, I think we should not say "HAHAHA MUKA JAWAAA" cause that's racist and degrading!!

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  21. T_T this entry soothes me. heart-broken here.. X_X

    May someday I'll find someone who loves me as i am.

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  22. Om ma gah...om ma gah!

    I feel each n everyone in here hahaha i can relate to it soooo much!

    Percaya or tak percaya...dulu bf ckp:

    "nape mamat yg selekeh2 nie dpt gf cantek2 ha?sy ni dpt awak...hehehe"

    is dat even supposed to be funny??? shiteee! mcm muke die tu jambu sgt! ok now hes my ex la kan hahaha

    Interpretation by malay men:

    im not fat but im not thin that means im FAT

    im not dark but im not fair either it means that im BLACK

    i got curly hair...which means that im totally out their list...only rambut gunekan jari je elok jd gf..

    HUH! penat! hahaha pasnih kalau aku jmp lagi org2 mcmnie,aku pangkah teros! carik org luar je lah! ngeeeeeheeee (tibe2 suke lak) haha

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  23. yeah they really love jessica alba.cis...totaly true apa yang alia ckp sbb alia(me) ini pon goes the same experience

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  24. Hi Alia. Im so agree with you. I dont understand with Malay guys. I guess just dont have enough money to buy a mirror just to look at themselves before judging girls like us.

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  25. hi alia LOL***

    i bukan setakat setakat ketawa, tapi seyes rasa macam nak gelak guling2 baca u punya post

    normal la tu.lelaki / gurls / makcik2 di malaysia sememangnya begitu.

    sebab pada mereka, yang hodoh gemok ni tak layak bergandingan dengan yang tampan

    n i paham why they stare at u n Don bcoz dlm hati diaorg akan cakap..perghhhh..giler buruk macam ni pom boleh rembat mat salleh handsome.mata diaorang sakit tgk orang buruk dgn org handsome.dats why la jadi gitu.

    juz ignore them.kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana kan.btw, a nice blog

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