And also, Arianna (or whatever your name is), if you are reading this, please read this with an open heart.
jb & Azurin,
You are right. Being tertipu bulat bulat memang menyakitkan hati. Especially when we supported her, gave our respect and prayers. Exactly what I said. Simpati orang bukan boleh di buat main main. Orang ikhlas memberi, dia boleh tipu kita pulak.
Tapi come to think about it, tak pe la, kita tak rugi apa apa. Kita ikhlas bagi dia doa, trust and all, kalau dia tipu, that's her loss. Kita rugi masa je tulis komen kat sana hikhikhik.
Tapi kalau dia innocent and this is just a hoax, kenapa tak keluar and bagi penjelasan? I don't see the point of closing/private her blog just to "run" away from this. She has a lot of readers, kawan kawan yang care about her, yang selalu mendoakan kesejahteraan dan kebahagian dia, she could at least explain her situation that she has been victimized.
She owes that much to them (to us)
Running away is a selfish act.
Sure maybe her justification is that itu hak dia; kenapa nak explain kat total strangers that she's actually the REAL ARIANNA (despite the evidences are against that claim - but lets be real, evidences yang dipamerkan tu pun bukannya kukuh, cuma it is such a coincidence that she privatized/closed her blog AS SOON as the story went viral, which raised our suspicion).
I would understand her predicament is that was the case. I wouldn't want to waste my time explaining my situation to strangers.
BUT, like I said before. There ARE some of my readers, friends, that have been there for me when I needed support, regardless whether they're just online or IRL, that DESERVE an explanation.
I owe that much to them.
So why can't she do the same?
Despite all these, my opinion on her writing skill still stands. She's a good writer, she managed to make her writings seem so...effortless. Bukan nampak macam yang direka (if that's the case)
Hence the reason why I am still her fan.
I don't condone on lying to your readers, but her stories amaze me.
I hope this explains MY opinion on this matter. Malas nak explain banyak kali dalam komen section tu. Tak semua orang scroll atas bawah kan. Hahahahah
p/s: I'm not in denial on her nonexistence, if she exists oklah, if she doesn't, I still love Arianna & Kevin, The Forbidden Love
Tiba tiba terfikir, korang pernah ke terfikir yang cerita aku dengan Don ni hanya rekaan semata-mata?
Haha..tapi kalau rekaan pon, I did a lousy job cause I don't have beribu followers pon.
Archive for January 2013
OMG..this has to be the most DELAYED entry in human history EVER!
haha..melampau dramatisss tak??
I kept on wanting to update about this, tapi asyik lupaa. Dan malas sebenarnya. Hahaha..
So here, imma tell you a story about a girl who went to the US to be with her fiance and celebrated Halloween for the second time of her life!
A story about Alia the supermodel!
Kaaaahhhh kaahhhhh kaaaahhh *ketawa tak berlagu*
A day before Halloween
We were supposed to go to SpookyWoods in Kersey Valley, High Point, North Carolina, up north which takes about 2 hours drive kot..ntah lupa. Time tu ada attraction pasal Slender man (that was a very popular phenomenon time tuuu) and J.R wanted to go real bad.
Kersey Valley ni cuma bukak during Halloween je. So setahun sekali je la. Claimed to be the 5th most scariest place in Amerikah. Tapi website mcm ahbeng jinjang. LOL
Rega tiket mahal gilak (for me yg cheapskate ini) I think dlm USD25 per person mcm tu. Since I'm a nice person, I've decided to belanja everybody (there were 4 of us) admission tickets. ($25x4) x 3.1 = RM 310
Tu baru tiket masuk. Tak campur gas lagi. Dah la 2 jam drive woi.
Tapi ni kan mcm experience sekali seumur hidup..idoknye aku nak pergi lagi lepas niiii..aku ni penakut sebenarnya....tengok Jangan Pandang Belakang pon tido dengan surah Yassin. Hahahahahahaha
Sampai skrang adik aku makes fun.
So anyway, di pendekkan cerita, we were supposed to be on the road dah patutnya pukul 7pm tu, sebab last admission pukul 9pm ke apa ntah. But biasa la..orang ada anak...lambattttt laaaa mereka mereka yang berkenaan sampaiii di rumah kamii.
Pastu dah sampai, baru nak cari direction.
|Masa ni baru nak cari direction. Tengok la DOn tu. Baru nak bukak phone. Eeeeeee|
|Masa ni dah redhaa, we cannot go to Kersey Valley sebab dah lambat.|
|Tangkap gambar duluu sebelum bertolakkkk|
Bunguks gila. Aku ni pon, tak de la excited sgt nak pegi, I mean I was, tapi rasa berbelah bahagi...sebab kena kluarkan duit RM400 for just 1 night.
Rasa macam tak berbaloi.
Kan aku cakap, aku ni cheapskate orangnya!
So last last, tak jadi pegi.
|Ni ka Kersey Valley tuuuu|
Hahah..macam sia sia je kan korang baca karangan PMR kat atas ni?
Tapi sebab kitaorg dah siap siap bergaya...so we decided to pergi party shop, sebab memang nak beli costumes utk Halloween besok kan.
So on the road we went!
Gila kau...malam tu aku rasa malam yang paling best!
Sebab you know why?
We went to several different places!
First skali, tak ingat pergi mana..I think we went to Party Shop, allll the waaayyy in Concord. You have to remember, kitaorg duduk kat kampung, so by 8pm je memang semua dah sepi.
Plus, the roads/highways memang sunyi, sebab kiri kanan hutan or tanah lapang. Gelap pulak tu.
And masa tu kan kecoh Hurricane Sandy tu.
Yes, our place memang effected, tapi sipi sipi la. Tak de hujan, tapi anginnnnn, macam taufannnnnn uolsss. Pokok goncang goncang. Flags terbang sana sini. (motippp flags terbangg???)
So everybody memang masa tu duduk kat rumah je..tapi kitaorg ni je yg beronggeng yahoo!
Don and I bought some masks to be worn on the next day. I bought a bunch of ridiculous cute stuffs sebab aku rasa benda tu comel. Sebati dengan sanubariii diriku iniiiii....hahahahaha haktuih!
Lepas Party Shop, we went to Walmart. Kat sini aku borong chocolates and candies nak bawak balik Mesia.
Lepas Wally world, we went to Target puloookkk. I LOVE Target. I mean I like Target because of the buyers la..sebab tak de la sekampung customers kat Walmart tu..sebab kat sini harga mcm mahai sikit la.. So you hardly see orang pakai spender kat luar la, tak pakai baju la, tak pakai seluar la, tetek ganyut la..seriously, true story!
Ala macam Mydin dengan Cold Storage la. Mydin untuk org org mcm kitaaa niii, Cold Storage selalunya untuk expats expats. Haa...gitu laa.
So kat Target pon aku borong cokelat jugak.
Yg J.R dgn Don siap pergi kat alley toys, siap main pedang-pedang uols. Tak tahaannnn. Dah memang tak de orang kaannn, diorg conquered the floor. Sampai pekerja pekerja kat situ pon buat tatauu je.
And when I was payinng at the cashier, diorg siap boleh buat lawak bangang lagi.
Sebab I still suck at their coins system kan, ada penny la, quarter la, dime la, aku konpiusss laaa. So when the cashier said "That'll be 21 and a quarter" aku terus haaaaaaa apa kau cakapppp
So I just pulled out all of my coins and told him (the cashier) "Ok, you pick"
Budak 2 ekor tu dah gelak.
Don: *says to the cashier* I'm sorry man, she's an Asian and she doesn't know how to do math *Gelak mcm orang gila*
Me: Yeah, that's why I'm here in the US, I've been kicked out from my own country cause I failed math
*cashier, Don, JR, Anna gelak like there's no tomorrow!*
By the time we left Target, it was like 11pm - 12am oredi. And we were so hungry! But tak de restaurant yang bukak lagi. (the town is dead by 9pm)
Yang ada pon fast food.
Oh btw, we don't eat fast food here, sebab tak healthy. Like MEMANG seriously tak healthy. Sebab tu ramai Americans gedempol.
Tapi masa tu tak de choice, so we opted for Pizza Hut. We went specifically branch yang bf's Ashley (if you still remember her, for those who don't, she's Don's niece) works at.
That was my first time meeting the guy. Very....senyap la orangnya. But I noticed he kept on looking at me, wahhh, tak pernah nampak orang Asia berkulit cokelat ke dik??
Tengah tengah tunggu our orders tu, tiba tiba he called my name
"Ally, come here, someone wants to talk to you" sambil kasi gagang phone pizza hut kat aku.
Ohh..rupa nya dia call gf dia (Ash) bagitau yg kitaorg ada kat tempat keja dia nokkss.
After receiving our orders, we went back to Anna and JRs place to watch some The Walking Dead marathon sambil makan pizza.
BEST NIGHT EVER.
We got home around 3am mcm tu.
I'm quoting Don ye "So this is my life; hanging out with my sister and her boyfriend. BEST LIFE EVER WHEEEEE!"
Hahahah...babik tau. He was being sarcastic pastu gelak mcm orang mabok.
Tapi betul la, we were soooo hyped up dlm keta boleh nyanyi nyanyi jerit jerit bagai mcm orang mabok. Padahal diorg tak minum pon.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA mcm bangang kan ending mcm ni.
Next entry I'll post about Halloween pulak yee! Sabooo sabooo..perut saya sakit ni. Nak berak.
I should have recorded that topless guy whose job is to attract females/gays customers. Marketing gituwww. But my feet were too tired and I just needed to sit down.
And I wasn't supposed to record in the store because I might plan to rob the store or something because I love A&F so much *rolls eyes*
p/s: Kan aku cakap ni random video...sapa suruh tengok. Padan muka tetekmu gendut. LOLOLOLOL.
(Luahan hati di teruskan di dalam komen)
I'm so sorry Arianna.
I'm sorry what the readers did to you, I know they can be mean and heartless behind computer screens.
And I'm sorry that I have to write this.
I know you must be sad, depressed, ashamed, furious, or kalau lagi keji, gelak ebil. But I doubt you were made from the fires of hell.
But I'm disappointed. I opened up to you, gave you tips on surviving LDR, supported you....tapi nampaknya I've been duped.
I can't deny it, I read your blog religiously. I enjoyed every story.
But you lead me to believe that your relationship is real.
Nevertheless, I'm not here to join the bandwagon nak kutuk you ke apa. I just want to say, there are still some of us that enjoyed your stories. You are a good writer. Please keep it up. I'll be your first fan!
p/s: If I'm wrong and this is all just a huge misunderstanding, please do enlighten me ya. Kiss kiss
Alia over and out.
Hari tu ternampak this one comment from Anon:
First things first ya.
I just wanna let this out from my system...comel gila komen! Maybe aku rasa comel sebab dia called me "dude" or most probably because "alrighty bye bye" at the end tu.
Ok and secondly,
Urgh, what forum? So I put on my detective hat and did a little investigating...(haha, padahal check blogger dashboard je. propa je lebih. HAHA)
So I took a snapshot of my daily statistics, and mostly came from this forum. Apa Cari forum ni weh?
I tried the URL, tapi I don't have the permission to read. Whatever.
Haha, tetiba nak emo.
Anyway, orang orang forum ni selalunya suka kutuk kutuk orang. Especially for posts yg kena ada privilege to read. I don't know la what this post in that forum says, could be good could be bad.
Tapi considering I've been lashing out on people before LOL, it's not a surprise if people want to kutuk me.
Kepada sesiapa yang originated from that forum....
Hai, saya Alia. Saya berumur 18 tahun. Saya berasal dari Subang Jaya. Saya dah bertunang. Tapi kalau awak rasa awak hensem dan duit berkepul kepul, saya masih single lagi. LOLOLOL. Dan saya tipu je tadi, umur saya bukan 18 tahun, tapi 22 tahun. Ok bai.
I think I'm gonna write about a serious topic this morning, considering that this is my blog, and I can do anything.
Ok rasa nak sepak tak.
Anyway, on my way to work this morning, I was stuck in a bad traffic somewhere in Subang (eh, hari hari pun memang stuck in traffic), and there was a bus on my right side of the car. It wasn't full-house, maybe sebab it was 6:40 in the morning kot, but enough people to fill the seats. And I saw a couple of people yang terpaksa berdiri.
And most of them are women.
And most of the seated passengers are men.
And this just hits me. Why Malaysian men ni tak beberapa nak gentlemen? I mean how hard is it for them to offer their seats to these poor women?
Come to think about it,
How hard is it for them to hold the door for you when they can clearly see you have your hands full?
How hard is it for them to offer themselves to carry your heavy boxes/luggages/anything when they can clearly see you're having a hard time lifting them up?
I don't think it'll do you any harm if you could just ask whether we need some help or not.
Tapi ada lagi jantan yang disgusting, some even DENIED when we asked for help.
I don't get it.
Susah sangat ke nak derma kederat tu?
Oklah, it's not fair for me to generalize ALL Malaysian men are like that. It's MOST ASIAN men. I've seen this and experienced it first hand during my visits to all Asian countries that I've visited.
It's also not fair for me to generalize that all western men are chivalrous. Ada jugak yang macam tahi. But most western men that *I* know/met aren't like that.
I remember Don offered his seat when we were on a KTM komuter to an older lady who was NOT standing in front of him (she was standing in front of another man whom looked like he wasn't gonna give his seat away). Oklah, he could have just trying to impress me but still, that's not my point.
There was also another friend of mine who came to Malaysia for the first time, and we were on a KTM komuter as well (lol, aku tak suka drive pergi KL) and he had to do the same thing. Well this guy I know for sure that he wasn't trying to impress me because we've been friends since we were both in high school. Tapi yang paling bombastik when he asked why men over here are so selfish?
All I could reply was, because they weren't brought up to be such gentlemen.
I could be wrong, their parents could have done a wonderful job in raising them to respect women, it could have just been the environment that pushed them to be like this. It's a competitive world, we only need to care for ourselves.
Anyway, if you're a guy and you think I'm just writing such a bullshit story, please do comment. I'd love to hear your side of the story. I'm sorry if this post sounds like I'm attacking you, but I'm not. I'm just trying to understand WHY.
And thank you for reading. LOLOL
Alia over and out.
Terharunya baca your replies semua on this post!
Thank you darlings, walaupon kadang kadang (eh, kadang kadang ke?) mulut aku ni macam naga sakti mintak pelempang, tapi you guys are so patient and still boleh bagi kata kata nasihat lagi!
Your words help to ease the pain knowing I'm not alone in this situation. The feeling of having to deal with all these alone lagi membuatkan terasa sakit. The burden that I'm carrying..tapi I never thought of how others dealt with it. Selalu aku ni selfish, only think about my own problem, tak pernah terfikir orang lain pon pernah alami jugak. So thank you sebab bring me back to reality!
I want to personally say thank you to these people, (in no order ye!) Vulgarian, didi.lee, f.i.e.z.a, Nj, Hasrina, Jiji, kupu kupu biasa, this Anonymous, alis, aslina majid, sheira cakap, iekan78, xfaynx, this Anonymous, wani * ezryl, cik Ana, Wanny.. Sorry ye kalau ada terlepas nama. Sebab I'm sweating like a pig (eh apa kena mengena??) so kenot brain properly!
Your stories inspire me.
Lagi la tak sabar nak kawen kan. Hahahahaha
Anyway, a reminder to myself, your readers reflect your personality. Kalau dalam blog penuh dengan kemarahan, riak tak tentu hala, hasad kedengkian, jealous mengjeles, pin point sana sini, memang la orang yang baca pon naik menyampah. You should always appreciate your readers a.k.a friends!
You know, over the years I've learned a lot.
I should not blog in anger. Yes, a blog is a diary (albeit public), but rather I should learn how to blog my anger moderately. Nanti post penuh dengan F-bombs, bila family baca, terus malu
I should keep my blog free from political talks. People have their opinions. I have mine.
I should keep my blog free from religious talks. People have their opinions. I have mine.
I should not talk/blog bad about others. When I write about how I hate so-and-so, it just shows how much I envy that person for whatever reason. Makes me look weak :p . Baik cakap depan depan, "woi, aku tak suka kau lah". Habis cerita. Tak payah nak sorok muka depan monitor.
5I should appreciate ALL comments cause those people yang komen tu, took their time to type! They're sharing part of their lives with me with their comments! Regardless whether komen tu berniat baik, ataupon busuk. Komen komen menganjing pon have to appreciate because kalau diorg tak suka tak de maknanya diorg nak bersusah payah nak buat karangan berunsur hateful. These people deserve some credit too kiss kiss. nah, kucupan untukmu. hahahaha
I should learn how respond politely and properly bila tiba tiba orang tanya "eh, you blogger secondsanctuary tu kan??" Tak de la aku menggelupur nak jawab "ehhh, mana u tau nii?? ehh takk laaa" Hhah, ni jawapan paling taik aku pernah kasi. Dah sah sah la menipu, yang aku dok tepek gambar muka tu, mestilah ada yang akan kenal.
I should also learn how to look approachable. Tak de la asyik muka naga je. Senyum selalu! Hahaha..
I should appreciate my readers because without them, tak wujudlah Captain of the Universe ni. Cheeewaaahhhh. Kipas tak hinggaaaaat. But it's partly true, kalau tak de korang, tak kuasa la aku nak lukis lukis komik bagai ni. Everyday kena perah otak on what to write/draw. Tapi lately tak perah sebab otak kering kontang. Writers block. Hahahaha.
By blogging jugak I've expanded my networks! I met some of my good friends via blogging. Percaya tak?
- I've met Nanie; my partner in crime when it comes to mencari jejaka kacak haha. She's still in the hunt. Tetiba aku nak sebok pulak mencari eye-candy. haha
- I've met Nadiana; who's a blogger friend of Nans but now also my friend. Eh, mcm confused pulak.
- I've met Bella; teman berlaga tetek tapi sekarang dah kawen pastu dah pakai tudung so no more laga laga. HAHAHHGADHGD
- I've met C (on a different platform); who went from scandaliciousss delicious (haha!) to a friend whom sometimes annoys me greatly tapi I still keep in touch because his accent is so seksi. HAHAHSAHSJA. And don't worry, Don approves. HAHAHA!!!
- I've met Kerie; who's also my daily gossiper and even though he annoys me too sometimes, tapi he's a great person to be around with
- I've met theblabber; oklah tipu, ni belum jumpa. But from our conversations, he sounds like a fun guy
- dan ramai lagi lah. Tetiba lupa pulak nama nama suma orang. Hahahahahahahaha
But my point is, I've met a bunch of great people here.
Eh, sat lagi sambung la. Ketiak berlengas dah ni. Hahaa, baru lepas eksersais la.
Video/Audio: I've downloaded a karaoke app on my iPad, and this is what happens when you have a crazy partner! You oso turn crazy!
Poker face - Vote for my rendition!
"This is for all the ladies" - Don M.
Don... Y U SO FAR?!?! (entry panjang berjela, dan tak de gambar. Kalau tanak baca, tak payah la klik)
I know I've been lacking in the drawing department. Malas lah nak lukis. Walaupon lah lukisan macam tahi kerbau.
I know I haven't been updating about how I *truly* feel.
Because I know people only want to see pictures, or read comics. Lite lite reading je. I know cause I'm liddat oso.
But this is still a blog, di mana I luahkan isi hati jantung hempedu. I have no where to mengadu.
I don't need to mengadu pon, I just need somewhere I could vent.
I'm very tired.
The truth is, I'm tired of carving a smile every time someone mentions LDR. I know I know, I've been in one for ages, I should be a professional LDR practitioner or something.
I give out advices on LDR all the time, but how often do people walk the talk?
I've tried, I'm trying and I will try to stay upbeat on everything, stay positive on life, tapi.......
They say time will heal. Cliche benor, idok nye heal heal pon.
Lagi sakit ada lah.
My heart is slowly breaking. Knowing that we're still half across the world from each other. Even after 10 years....
Selalunya kalau dah 10 tahun dalam relationship, orang dah beranak pinak anak 9 dah. Setiap tahun process sorang anak... haha.
Aku ni, still struggling in settling my life.
I want to buy a house, I want to buy my own car, I want to start a family, tapi I can't.
I'm putting my life on halt, for 10 years.
I've received countless of comments, cakap "tu la, tak de orang Melayu/Malaysia dah ke" "sapa suruh cari jauh jauh", etc.
We fell in love.
I don't know how it happened, it just did.
He could have been living anywhere, and I'd still have fallen in love with him.
It's just an unfortunate thing that he lives across the world.
People have doubted our relationship.
Even my own family members.
It hurts to think that my own blood pon pernah fikir we wouldn't last.
At times like this lah I need your support.
Tapi alhamdulillah, they've finally realized that he's not going anywhere.
But there are times when they jokingly want to play cupid, matchmaking me with some random dude, yang usually anak kepada kawan diorg or something.
I know lah they're only joking, so I'd usually laugh along and say no.
But do they know that deep inside, my heart is breaking, knowing that my family subtlety still thinks that he's not good for me? Walaupon lah it's just a joke....it still shows that there's that slightest bit of doubt still exists.
Maybelah because it seems that he's not here for me, where in fact, dia lah orang yang pertama who wishes me good morning, and the last person who wishes me good night.
But diorg tak nampak tu.
They can only see what's being shown in front of them.
.....the non-existence of his physical being.
Tapi tak pe la, I know they mean well, they don't want me to be left heartbroken if things doesn't work out.
If he wants to walk out on me, he would have done that 10 years ago.
Tapi tak tau la jugak kan, kot kot dia sengaja tunggu sampai 10 tahun semata mata nak dump me, point and laugh at me while saying "HAHA BITCH I'VE PLAYED YOU ALL ALONG".
Itu bukan manusia dah, itu kejam tahap datuk setan. Haha
haha ok lawak tak lawak di kala hati duka.
Anyway, point nya, aku tengah berhati kaca sekarang ni. Rasa nak mengobak kat dlm opis ni, tapi nanti hilang lah macho ai kan...haha.
Selalunya, aku je yang kasi tips untuk survive LDR kan, tapi this time, I'm asking to you my fellow friends, do you know how to mend a broken heart?
Ok tipu, tak de la wordless mana pon. Saja nak rasa jadi macho kejap bila blog bertitle "Wordless Wednesday".
Anyway, tengah tengah bajet bizi on a Wednesday morning in the office...muncul la chatbox monyet ni.
|Yang meghoh tu terpaksa di censored kan. Kalau tak mesti korang menggeletis kegelian. Hahahahahsjahsajshash|
We're so cool liddat.
How much do I love this guy?
A LOT AND LOTS!
Ok tu je. Bai.
Haha, entry malas.