I might be seeking professional help

Oh gosh, lama gila tak update blog.
Tetiba pulak hari ni terasa nak update.

Sebenarnya, banyak benda dah berlaku ke atas diri beta ini (chewaahh, masih lagi beranggapan diri sendiri berdarjat tinggi hahah)

Eh which got me thinking, kalau aku sukahati gelar diri sendiri "beta" dlm blog sendiri, nanti kena saman ke? Hahaha..mana tau, isu isu sentitip ni amat sensitip dengan isu sentitip

Anyways, the reason why I stopped writing was because banyak sangat benda berlaku sampai tak tau apa nak update dulu. Last last terus tak update. Hahahahah

Betul la.

Even sekarang pun aku tak der point nak tulis, padahal dah set dalam otak nak cerita pasal recent trip (which was not so recent dah).
Sebab bila start type dlm blog je, terus ...hilang.

During those hiatus months, satu blog pun aku tak jenguk.
Aku tak tau napa aku ada this ugly attitude...I mean bila tiba mood malas nak update blog, blog sendiri pun rasa disgusted nak bukak.

Seriously, masa tu la rasa mcm "ewwwwwwwww kenapa aku ada blog", "kenapa blog aku buruk sangat" "kenapa contents blog aku mcm sampah" kenapa kenapa kenapa

Terus aku tak bukak langsung.

Blog orang lain pun aku tak baca. Sebab aku rasa kenapa aku perlu baca life orang lain yang dah semestinya lagi best dari life aku.

Hahah....sebab bila aku baca how happy your marriage is, or how beautiful your wedding was, or how awesome your kid's birthday party was.....aku rasa mcm useless person.

Lagi sakit hati kalau baca orang tu pergi travel sana sini, makan steak 2 kg ke (haha!), celebrate your 4th anniversary with your husband......you know stuff that I don't get to do.

So aku rasa mcm kenapa aku nak dwell dgn perasan iri hati aku ni when I can just stop reading?

Hahahahahaha ye aku memang saikosis!

Then a couple of months later, baru kebosanan melanda.....and the makcik kepoh inside me is screaming .....I need my daily intake of gossips and I need to read about other people's lives!!

Hahahahahahahaha

Alia is saikosis.


The End.
ahahah sebenarnya entry tak de point tapi sebab kemaruk nak type panjang panjang. hahaha

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