Thursday, December 31, 2009

Au revoir 2009, Hola 2010! Wah, multi languages mak kali ni.


WOW!

Lamanya tak update blog (wah, itu pon kecoh ke Alia). Tapi lately ni, rasa malas gila nak hapdet lahhh. I mean lain lah kalau aku ni hari hari tukar boifren baru pastu buat seks rambang sana sini (motif nak tukar bf dan buat seks rambang?? hahaahah)

So anywayyyysss, 2010 is only 2 hours away. What's my new year's resolution?


TO STOP MAKING ANOTHER FAR-FETCHED RESOLUTION LEPAS TU DEPRESSED SEBAB TAK DAPAT CAPAI. 

Yes, I'm going to learn to live in kesederhanaan and be content on what I already have. Wah, bunyi macam gempak.

I'm not saying I should stop aiming on whatever I should aim lah kan, but tak de lah sampai macam:

"Azam tahun baru saya untuk tahun ini adalah untuk kuruskan badan sampai 40kg dalam masa 2 bulan dan cuba untuk masuk Malaysian Idol"

Ok, azam yang paling taik aku pernah fikir.


There are several things yang berlaku in 2009 (dan akhir tahun 2008). Contohnya (that I can remember):


 1
Don datang Malaysia! Yay yay yay. Eh, wait, ini cita-cita tahun 2008. But he came at the end of 2008, so, boleh kira la ni.

    (Langkawi cable car ftw)


     2
    Tengok Don pakai baju melayu dan songkok....dan pakai dress shoes (dasar omputeh, nak buat macam mana). Sungguh kacak dan segak bergaya! Eh, I'm biased, so whatttttt

      (My whole family, serious shit tak tipu @ Acu's wedding. CUBA CARI DON BERBAJU MELAYU DAN BERSONGKOK. HAHAHHAA. Ok nevermind. He stands out)


       3
      Dyed a chunk of my hair BLOODY red (tho warna itu faded over time) and received various jelingan dan surprisingly, compliments from strangers. I kid you not.



         4
        Received salary increment (twice!!) dalam masa beberapa bulan sahaja. Oso dapat bonus! Dan dapat permanent post!....lepas tu aku quit. Hahah. Bongok gila.


         5
        First time professionally negotiated on employment contract, and rejected the offer. Rasa macam bagus gila, sekeh kang.


         6
        Ayah (uncle) kawen baru. And his new wife is only 5 years older than me! AND HE'S what, 50 years old??? OH NOES. But she's a great person lah. Thank God. Nasib baik bukan jenis yang kawin sebab nak duit dan paksa orang tunduk kat dia sebab dapat gelaran Datin instant. Itu can go to helllll. Wah, tiba-tiba emo. (Matiler, kot tetiba ayah baca blog ni. Hahah ampun Ayahhh, nanti Alia basuh kereta P Ramlee tu yeee??!!)
               
             7
            Went and stayed (and was hoping I could overstay) in America for 6 fricking months! That's the highlight of the year lah, cause I spent half a year kat sana.




               8
              Holy shit, I spent half a year outside of Malaysia.







              9
              I am still amazed. SETENGAH TAHUN WOI. Hahah...ok jakun, sila abaikan.


                 10
                I went to Walmart, and loved it. LOL. (Hoh, korok gila, pergi Walmart pon suka) Seronok tengok shampoo Head and Shoulders (cause I use that) harga $3 sahaja, sebab selama ni harga berbelas ringgit.

                   11
                  I went to K-Mart. Dan still prefer Walmart cause things are cheaper.




                   12
                  Hoh apa ni, pergi convenient stores pon boleh jadi highlight.


                     13
                    VIVA LAS VEGAS. I WENT TO FRICKING LAS VEGAS. VEGAS UOLLS, MAK SUKAAAA sebab dapat tengok orang putih separuh naked. HAHAHAHA. Wah keji.




                       14
                      Went to Carowinds. Theme park sempadan North and South Carolina. Syiok gilos serta berlengas.




                         15
                        First time main game card secara serious with the Millers. Ni kira macam judi kanak-kanak lah jugak, ala, kita sini main kad guna kuaci ke apa, sana guna 20 posen. Macam tu lah.

                           16
                          Met the Millers. I love them to bits. Ok tak der lah semua, sebab aku rasa ada je keluarga tu yang macam cinabeng.

                             17
                            Benci tahap gaban kat one of his family members. Ni yang jenis tak reti respect orang lain punya privacy dan selfish. Eh, aku baru je kenal diorg, dah boleh benci membenci ka? Legit ka macam tu? Haha


                               18
                              JEJAK KAKI DI SOUTH KOREA (albeit airport sajaaaa..jadi lah!) WEEEEE WOO WEE WOO AHNYOUNGHASEYO.




                                 19
                                Stranded in Amsterdam for 12 hours. 12 FRICKING HOURS!!


                                  20
                                  Argued with omputehs professionally and demanded compensation (walaupon masa kat Amsterdam tu haprak diorg nak layan ptuih). Oklah, I always argue with Don (omputeh la jugak tu), tapi itu argue menggedik, tak kira.


                                     21
                                    Mandi swimming pool SETIAP HARI. Seriously, macam jakun gila bila ada pool belakang rumah. (eh, memang jakun pon)



                                       22
                                      First time TIDAK sambut raya bersama keluarga :( Sedih lah jugak part ni.








                                       23
                                      But overjoyed sebab tak perlu kasi duit raya kat adik adik dan sedara mara. HAHAHA. 



                                       24
                                      First time puasa 13 (or was it 16 hours?) jam because of summer. 


                                       25
                                      First time CARVED A PUMPKIN!!

                                        (Yes yes, with the help of Dondon of course. BUT LOOK AT THAT, OUR PUMPKIN'S THE BEST! IT'S A FRICKING VAULT BOY AND NOT SOME LAME ASS JACK-O-LANTERN! WEEE! Wah, tetiba suka hati gila si gedik ni. )



                                         26
                                        I celebrated HALLOWEEN! Like the REAL HALLOWEEEN where you go from houses to houses trick or treating. SYIOK GILA. AND I DRESSED UP. WAH. Semangat siottttt.

                                          (AS ZOMBIES. I LOVED every moment of that. )


                                           27
                                          Had a glorious vacay @ Cameron Highlands recently with family. SYIOK GILA




                                             28
                                            Ni bukan nak cakap aku ni separa mat salleh ke apa, but I don't eat fresh durian (boleh?). I mean bukannya sampai "EWW YUCK WHATS THIS" punya tahap gedik, tapi sebab aku rasa bila makan badan rasa panas melampau ok. Dah lah lemak banyak, lagi nak tambah kepanasan?? Anyway, 2009 ni jugak lah first time saya makan fresh durian since I dunno when! YAAAA!! SILA KAGUM DENGAN ALIA!


                                                

                                               29
                                              First time menganggur and REALLY DESPERATE to get a job sebab nak kawen. Haha.. eh, betul lah. 


                                                Apa lagi lah, aku dah tak boleh fikir dah. So many things that happened in 2009, I enjoyed every moments of it, laughters and sadness, but it's time to say goodbye! (wah, ayat cliche) and hopefully 2010 won't be as bad. 


                                                Silalah doa saya cepat kahwin amen.


                                                HAHAHAHAH
                                                8

                                                Monday, December 21, 2009

                                                Alia's Guide: SURVIVING LDR

                                                So kembalilah lagi dalam sesi mengumpat bersama Cik Alia.

                                                I've got some people asking me macam mana I can survive 8 years (and counting) LDR. So here, I'll summarize everything under one post. So nanti bila orang tanya, boleh lah aku cakap "please refer to my post dated sekian sekian, thank you". 

                                                Wahahah, pang, kena pelempang.

                                                So the main question here is,  

                                                "How do you remain in love when you can't even remain in the same zipcode?"



                                                1
                                                Firstly first, TALK ABOUT YOUR LDR INTENSIVELY. What to expect, how to cope, if adinda (wah, tetiba adinda) keluar dengan kawan-kawan will that affect kekanda, etc. Expect the conditions and accept them. Positive thinking lahh.

                                                Oklah, bukan lah maksud aku "intensively" tu, dalam satu hari tu cakap pasal tu je, matilah kebosanan, haha. But stretch it lah. That's why my relationship sampai boleh pergi ke 8 tahun. Because we had a mutual agreement in the beginning. Kira dah macam tulis contract lah, I cannot do this, you cannot do that. Hahah. And plus, it's a topic for conversation. It bonds you.

                                                This might seems remeh temeh, but trust me, this helps alot because most LDRs end in disaster within the first 6 months. So if you've already talked about it, you basically know what to expect thus membuatkan you remain calm and steady. Get itttt? If you can't even cope with the tediousness, then how do you expect to cope with your relationship meh?


                                                 2 (and 1/2)

                                                Most LDRs inevitably lead to mild depression. So it is important for you to REMAIN SOCIAL - even if you don't like it. Yes yes, I know you're madly in love, you only want to spend your days with your partner, but that's not healthy. Go out sometimes, have fun with your family and friends.

                                                It relaxes your mind, tak der lah duduk terperuk mengadap muka dia on webcam 24/7. You'll argue less too.

                                                Oh yes, YOU NEED TO ARGUE TOO. Ok jangan lah sampai menghempas pintu baling pasu kinda argument, but, argue manja manja gituwww. I think everybody knows that 1 argument a week keeps your relationship healthy. Haha.


                                                But girls, make sure MAJORITY of your social clicks are women- just to be safe. Kalau tak, nanti ada yang menaga. Kah kah kah. Same goes for you too lah men.





                                                EXPRESS YOURSELF. Since both of you are so far away from each other, so physical gestures are out. So what if you can't buy her flowers, or dine her, or bawak berjoli sakan, it's not the end of the world.

                                                You can always sing for her/him on the phone/skype/whatever means. If you're not the singing type, you can always dance for her on webcam, haha. Ikut creativity masing-masing lah. I'm just giving examples.

                                                Though all these are nice, but for me personally, I'd appreciate more if he goes ol' skool, where the PEN is mightier than the phone.

                                                Write down your thoughts in a classic love letter.

                                                It's romantic, it's sweet and it's omaigodcair. Haha.

                                                Don used to write me heaps of love notes. He even wrote me love poems! And made a flash video expressing his love (toped with lomantik musik somemore).

                                                Oklah, this is downright embarrassing because I know my family read my blog too and I know they won't expect I *could* be someone so cheesy and romantic, but Don and I used to berbalas-balas love notes.

                                                It was where I'd write a love letter, saying stuff how I adore him, long for him and such, and he'd reply me via love notes too!

                                                LOL, I've browsed through my vault (wah, ada vault haha) where I keep his poems, pictures and such, and all of them are so cheesy lah!! Malu nak letak sini. HAHA. But I suppose this is the LEAST cheesy and corny...I think lah.




                                                [Berehat sementara waktu. Shit lah, I just read one of his letters, where he wrote when we had some difficulties, sampai menangis aku baca. What the hell. I'd post it here, but I need to get his permission first]



                                                Ok, so this is the not-so-cheesy poem lah yang I can post here..kalau nak letak yang lain tu, confirm korang muntah. Haha..


                                                His VDay gift for me; a beautiful card with this written inside: 


                                                Today I write to you my love;
                                                My beautiful angel, sent from above.
                                                These words I write, they don't say much,
                                                but the emotions they express, are meant to touch.
                                                Your heart, your soul, these things which I love about you the most,
                                                they carry you along, like a graceful dove,
                                                so beautiful you are, soaring through the sky.
                                                Your wings they lift us up so high.
                                                If I were to die, with only one breath left to give,
                                                I'd say "I love you", for to love you, is to live.
                                                I wish these words could meant more to you,
                                                I wish they could show you how much I do.
                                                Love you, my sweets, forever, and always.

                                                Forever yours,
                                                Don W. Miller II

                                                Sweet tak abe ai??

                                                Hahahahahahahahahahah

                                                Ok sila muntah.

                                                But after a couple of years, mood menulis poem lomantik lomantik sudah pudar. Haha. Dua dua malas.

                                                I have this one weird perangai, agak annoying lah, I love to hear his reasons WHY he love me. Haha...dia awal-awal dulu, suka lah jugak, ye lah, cintan cintan baru berputik, so ayat-ayat mesti lah lomantik lomantik. But now, rasa macam orang dah kawen 8 tahun. Kentut depan sesuka hati je. So dia agak malas lah nak layan bila aku tanya "abeeee, why do you love meee?? kelip kelip mata".

                                                Mesti dia respon balik "I've told you several times. Why don't you record it then??"

                                                Kurang asam!

                                                But agaknya dia rasa bersalah kot, so he wrote me a love poem telling me WHY he loves me. Boleh lah diabadikan selama-lamanyaaa. Wee! Saya suka! Suka!

                                                So ini adalah poem terbaru (and hopefully won't be his last) dia. Written a year ago (or less).



                                                Ask me not why I love you the way I do.
                                                I love you for all the small things the world cannot see.

                                                I love you
                                                for your eyes which enchant me more than any spell can ever entrance.

                                                I love you
                                                for your lips which leave me lingering, longing and wanting for more.

                                                I love you
                                                for your smile that makes the earth and ground beneath me spin.

                                                I love you
                                                for your voice that blends with the heavenly songs of angels at play.

                                                I love you
                                                for many more reasons than I've mentioned today..

                                                So, ask me not why I love you the way I do,
                                                I know they are more numerous than I can count in just a day.

                                                DWMII

                                                Sobs sobs.

                                                Bunyi macam ada subliminal message cakap "aku dah kasitau ni, jgn nak tanya lagi!" kan? HAHHAHA!!

                                                Eh crap, baru point nombor 3 ke? Shit, ok ok, teruskan.



                                                4
                                                SAVE MORE. Let it be money or patience.

                                                Kesabaran itu penting. Especially when you're in this kind of situation. You can't expect your partner to fly to you in a matter of time. Kalau hari-hari asyik dok tanya "when are you coming to see meeee, I miss you oredyyy", mesti lah partner tu rasa meluat. Silap hari, langsung dia tak datang. haha. So bawak-bawak lah bersabar yek.

                                                Once your partner arrives, now you need the money untuk bawak dating, belanja sana sini kan? Since you two haven't seen each other for so long, mesti lah nak dating for the rest of the days when they're there kan? So cost untuk bawak dating/jalan jalan tu pon mesti lah lagi tinggi daripada couples yang 30 mins drive from each other. Sebab tu before the official arrival, silalah simpan duit. Bawak lah bekal makanan ke campus/office. Save sikit budget. Hehe. This goes for the other partner jugak. You need the money to travel jugak.

                                                Ini kira asas mendirikan rumah tangga lah jugak, finance arrangement. Kalau asyik "eh baby, you lah bayar, I tertinggal wallet kat rumah", baik kau korek bijik mata!


                                                5
                                                Speaking of which, you should PLAN TO MEET EACH OTHER. Jangan lah I lap U U Lap Me, but semata-mata online/on the phone saja. Itu memberikan harapan palsu, sekali gus meretakkan hubungan anda! (wah ada bunyik macam ayat majalah InTrend tak? Hahahaha!).

                                                It's important to see each other again at an interval of time throughout your relationship. This will help you to catch up over the things that you couldn't do while being apart. Oso, the anticipation of seeing each other again WILL DEFINITELY gives you the excitement serta harapan dan eliminate perasaan lonely ituuu.



                                                6
                                                Since you can only spend your time online, so instead of just talking non-stop, sila lah mencari ACTIVITY WHERE BOTH OF YOU CAN SHARE and do it together-gether! Tak kisah lah nak buat apa, main farmville sama sama ke, cafe world sama sama ke, crossword puzzle sama sama ke. That's why lah saya bermain World of Warcraft. Cause it's something that Don and I can do together. It helps you to communicate better dan keeps you entertained!

                                                Kan kan!

                                                One suggestion I can give, you can go here untuk bermain MMO games bersama-sama: OMGPOP



                                                7
                                                SURPRISE YOUR PARTNER. Selain daripada menari gedik gedik on webcam (kalau Don buat macam tu, boleh aku mati terkejut), silalah guna snail mail. Yes, though you claim that you're fine with intangible things and his/her love is more than enough to keep you happy, but you'd still be damn excited if he sends you gifts via post kan!

                                                Lepas tu boleh lah bersifat riak takbur depan kawan-kawan/family "Look, he sent me this box of chocolates! Kau ada?" (hahah, motif nak riak?)


                                                Contohnya macam ini.



                                                (Ini sebenarnya nak beriak lah ni..hahahhha, sebab tu letak gambar)



                                                8
                                                Perhaps the most important point in a successful LDR...TRUST.

                                                In surviving LDR, you must learn to trust your partner whole heartedly. There are no rooms for suspicion as your foundation in LDR is trust. Don't take this lightly you knowwww, a single suspicion will break the bond, and it's the beginning of the end!

                                                Although it is easier said than done but trust me, if your partner is apt to do something unfaithful to you, they will still do it under your nose. Sifat kegatalan tu tak boleh nak sorok-sorok lagi dah. Therefore there is no need for you to create such unnecessary stress a.k.a drama in your LDR.



                                                9
                                                COMMUNICATION is vital. Tapi ini bukanlah green light untuk kau call him tanya "What are you doing?" "Where are you at?" "Who are you with?" "When are you coming back?" Where how when why why why nag nag nag nag.

                                                Ok I admit, sometimes I'm like that osoo, but fikir fikir lah sendiri, do you like it when your partner asks you the same shit every 1 hour? Mesti lah rasa suffocating kan.

                                                Anyway, by communicating better, it helps you to connect with your partner on a different level compared to your peers. Betul lah, I mean by just talking, you'd know his childhood memories, his high school experience, siapa ex gf's dia in DETAIL. Tidakkah anda mahu itu? Hahah...

                                                Siapa cakap physical contact is important? Intellectual understanding LAGI important.



                                                10
                                                DO NOT TAKE THE RELATIONSHIP LIGHTLY. Just because your partner is absent, doesn't mean it gives you the right to dictate and manipulate your relationship. Your partner STILL has the rights to participate in any life altering decision making, regardless of where they are. Tapi jangan lah menggedik-gedik nak call semata-mata nak tanya:

                                                "Abeeee, anje nak keluar pergi dinner ni...baju mana nak pakai??? please help meeee"

                                                Wah. Kalau aku itu dah kena pelempang tepat di muka. Kalau benda remeh-temeh macam tu pon nak mengada-ngada nak tanya aku, baik korek mata sendiri je! (What is up with me and korek korek mata ni lately).



                                                11
                                                And lastly (wah, habis jugak si Alia ni!), DO NOT SUCCUMB TO NEGATIVE COMMENTS OF LDR.

                                                Like seriously (wah, tetiba bimbo-like), a lot of us suka dengar cerita orang yang mengatakan LDR doesn't work. Negative impression itu eventually akan hunt you down thus destroy your perfect relationship. If you're in a long distance relationship, you MUST learn to believe that it WILL work.

                                                Believing is the key. 

                                                Macamlah if you believe you're ugly, then YOU ARE ugly. Tapi kalau anda fikir dan percaya anda ni super gorgeous, then YOU ARE gorgeous. Begitu lah.

                                                I know because I didn't let any negative comments influence me. I am proud to say that I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY CONQUERED MY LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.

                                                *Kembang kempis kembang kempis*

                                                Yes it takes a lot to make it work, but it is NOT impossible. You just need to have a lot of patience, trust and testicular fortitude.

                                                Easy right?

                                                Good luck people!
                                                (wah, aku bercakap ni macam ada je orang nak mintak pandangan aku hahaha)
                                                18

                                                Monday, December 14, 2009

                                                How We Met

                                                Sebenarnya, I dread to write about this. Our "how-we-met" love story bukanlah sesuatu yang romantik, ala-ala coffee-shop-bump-love-blossoms bullshit. Nor it blossomed from corny-pick-up-lines-dalam-club.

                                                If you were to ask me the same question a few years ago, mesti takkan dapat jawapan. I mean why does it really matter kan? Macam mana jumpa, kat mana jumpa, masa jumpa tu pakai baju kaler apa, tengah makan apa. Who the hell cares lah.

                                                Eh, tiba-tiba teremo pulak si gedik ni.

                                                Anyway, macam mana nak start cerita ah? Haha..

                                                Flashback kejap ya.



                                                I was a miserable young woman. Lonely and miserable. Rejections was the norm for me. Lelaki mana yang nak perempuan gemok, hitam dan pendek. Tak cukup dengan cela itu, muka berjerawat batu pulak tu.

                                                Self-esteem jangan cakap lah. WHAT self-esteem? Haha. I kept on comparing myself with my circle of friends. Macam langit dan bumi. Cuma aku lagi teruk kot, bukan bumi lagi, dah macam telaga dengan kedalaman 40 kaki kot.

                                                I hated all my years in high school. I was surrounded with pretentious people, dan walaupon I was never kena bullied depan-depan, but kenalah jugak semburan kata-kata sindir dari school mates.

                                                5 years of semburan kata-kata sindir were more than enough to kill my confidence. Though di luaran I seemed like I didn't care, but di dalam, I was ready to break.

                                                Did you know my old crush rejected me lepas dia jumpa aku? Eh, itu cerita lain.

                                                I know all these seem so...exaggerated, but trust me, I shall provide a picture nanti. I'll scan it later lah. Sekarang malas gilakkk. Haha..

                                                So anyway, I 'met' him online when I was 17, JUST got out from school. Yes my dearies, I met him online. Yang kelakarnya, he LOATHES chatting/chat rooms, and he was only there because of his friends. Dan kebetulan I wanted to try chatting, kira itu first time aku chat lah tu. We were there in the same room, at the same time.

                                                Agaknya dah tertulis kot.

                                                "SI ALIA AKAN BERTEMU DENGAN SI DON DI ALAM VIRTUAL PADA HARI SEKIAN DAN WAKTU SEKIAN SEKIAN"

                                                Haha...

                                                Eh memandai je aku.


                                                He wasn't much of a chat-person. Kalau chat dengan dia, adalah 2-3 patah perkataan je dia type. Gila bosan mat ni. Haha. Dia teramatlah mysterious. And that made me very curious. Walaupon orang cakap "curiosity killed the cat", tapi dalam case ini, "curiosity membuatkan si kucing itu menjadi gemok sebab terlalu banyak love" (haha, proverb hentam sendiri). Eh paham-paham sendiri lah.

                                                His actions (or not-so-much-action) intrigued me. Lagi dia type sepatah, 10 patah aku tanya.

                                                I guess that worked lah kan.

                                                Eh tapi jangan lah blame aku kalau korang buat macam tu then lelaki tu tetiba cakap "I'm busy can you not bother me anymore??". Hahaha...



                                                (I asked him a few years ago, kenapa he acted as if he didn't want to chat with me. Ye lah, cara dia chat dengan aku macam he was annoyed je kan, then he said "Because I knew you were curious about me, and I knew you weren't gonna stop chatting with me. I also knw that women LOVE mysteries".

                                                Hahahah...Cara dia cakap "women love mysteries" tu ada bunyi berunsurkan mengeji. Dalam kata lain, perempuan ni busybody betul lah. Sebok je nak tau kan. Hahahaha...)



                                                So berbalik kepada kisah lama, he remained sebagai "special" chat-buddybuddy sahaja and plus, I didn't know what he looks like. Neither did he know rupa aku macam mana.

                                                For the longest time, I didn't want him to know how I looked like. Almaklumlah, kalau lelaki Malaysia pon jijik tengok muka aku, apatah lagi orang luar kan. Takut dia fikir "Eww, you're nothing compared to all these American girls over here". 

                                                Masa tu manalah mak tau yang orang Amerikah ni lagi hodoh dari muka mak niii. Selalu tengok orang Hollywood lawa-lawa jeee. Hahahahah...

                                                Anyway, it was never a problem for me. Tak tau muka dia macam mana pon tak kisah. Tapi kalau dah hari-hari chat (he started to open up, thank God, kalau tak boleh mati kebosanan kot!), so feelings meelings pon started to develop la kannn.

                                                We started to use voice chat jugak masa tu. Masa first time dengar suara dia,, boleh tak aku ingat dia guna machine voice changer tu. Hahah...rupa-rupanya memang suara dia garau..hahahah. Oopssss. I beri the sori.

                                                Can you imagine how strong his words were, sampai boleh jatuh cintan with a faceless person.

                                                Sampailah tahap di mana I couldn't handle it anymore, I really wanted to see the face behind the words. Its been about 2 years lah communicating tanpa muka. Mula-mula takut makkk, buatnya si Don ni berat 4 kali ganda berat aku, perut berlipat 8, berbulu dada kerinting, rambut kerinting berminyak. Urghh, macam-macam aku fikir ok.

                                                Tapi tak pe, kuatkan hati jugak, siap cakap kat diri sendiri "tak kisah lah rupa dia macam mana, yang pentingnya, I fell in love with the man behind the screen, I fell for HE HIMSELF, bukannya setakat tangkap cintan sebab gambar ala-ala Brad Pitt ke apa".

                                                Berkali-kali lafaz ayat tu kat diri sendiri. Haha...punyalah kental.

                                                Oih, takut lah weh. Sekali dapat pakcik pedophile umur 54 tahun gatal ke apa macam mana?! Gila kau, boleh automatically jadi kurus aku sebab terkejut sangat kalau macam tu. Lemak semua cair..haha

                                                I did ask him for a picture (setelah semangat kental built up). Dia sanggup keluar beli webcam!! And he sent me THIS picture!!



                                                Ya Rabbi, hati luruh!! COMEL GILA PAKCIK NI!!
                                                (ok, leave him alone lah, he was 17, of course muka budak)


                                                And he even bought and posted A WEBCAM FOR ME TOO. Like snail-mail? I mean I understand lah, dia dah kasi gambar dia, now it's my turn lah kan. But haha, I refused. I lied to him yang I didn't get his mail, yang his mail was lost somewhere. Gila teruk. Padahal aku dah bedal guna tangkap gambar sendiri (dan adik-adik). Haha.

                                                That lie only lasted for about a few months (eh, lama jugak tau!), until he finally found a picture of me online.

                                                WAHHHH!!!

                                                Menangis tak berlagu!! Masa dia tanya "Do you have short hair?", hati dah berhenti berdegup. Crap.

                                                Habislah aku. Putus lah communication aku dengan dia lepas ni.

                                                Dalam otak dah fikir macam-macam. Sekali lagi cintaakuu tidak berjawabbb. I thought I could make him fall for the REAL ALIA dulu sebelum dia tengok rupa aku. Sedih sangat masa tu, sampai dah tak boleh nak menangis.

                                                Masa nak jawab "Yes" pon terketar-ketar.

                                                I expected him to say "Oh." dengan nada disappointed, or "OMG U IS UGLY" straight forward gilos.

                                                Instead, he said "I knew it. You look exactly how I imagined you to be!"

                                                Eh? Excuse me? Betul kah apa yang aku dengar ni?

                                                He actually LIKED/S the way I look?? WAHHHH MAKCIK HAPPY UOLLS!!

                                                Tapi masa tu macam tak percaya lagi, I mean biar betul? Tak pernah orang complimented on how I look like before, so I demanded to see the picture. Wah, betul mekkk, it was a picture of meeeee! Hahahaha (eh, tapi bukan guna webcam yang dia kasi tu, ni gambar guna mobile phone - sorry, dah hilang gambar tu)

                                                Sebenarnya, before he found my picture, dia pon tak kisah rupa aku macam mana, because he fell in love with ME, and not from my looks. Oh, so selama ni, aku bukan bertepuk sebelah tangan lah. Hehehe. Ni according to him ye. Ni bukan ayat angkat bakul.

                                                I personally think it's better lah, I mean you get to know someone first, without having their looks jadi pemberat whether you should reject them or not. But of course it takes a lot of trust, and guts, and semangat kental. Ye lah, what if the person doesn't look like how you imagine them to be. Mesti lah sikit-sikit tu ada impact jugak. But if you truly love him/her, and you really don't care how he/she turns to look like, then no biggie lah kan.

                                                Macam my case, I was willing to accept him dengan seadanya, tapi alhamdulillah, mata aku sedap memandang.

                                                Dan sejak itu, we have nothing more to hide, nothing to be embarrassed about, and we both know we can count on each other for whatever reason. Oleh sebab itu lah, our love berputik mekar...Wahahah...geli tak baca?

                                                Just because we've only met in person last year (when he came to Malaysia), people always assume yang our relationship cuma "cinta monyet", yang he really doesn't love me, yang we would never go far, yang we've only known each other for a small amount of time.

                                                Yes true, we've only been together (physically) for less than a year kalau kira both of our visits to both countries. But did you know that we've been together for 8 years (albeit virtual)? During the first 7 years, since we couldn't go out on a proper date, all we did was talk. And we talked (and still do) for every minute for everyday. Celik mata sampai tutup mata.

                                                We connect on a HIGHER level than the rest of these couples around my age do. So who are YOU to judge that my relationship is bogus? How would you justify his 'ungenuine' love when he's been THERE FOR ME for every goddamn second for 8 goddamn years? IF he was just playing me, why would he waste his time THAT long for someone who's just OVER THE INTERNET? He could have gotten a vajayjay somewhere closer to his house.

                                                I'm sorry, I'm just tired of hearing people saying shit like that just because we met in an unorthodox way. He is by far the most honest man I've known. Apa kau ingat orang yang kau jumpa in real life tepi club tu jujur sangat?

                                                So yeah. That's my love story. 7 years of being apart from each other (including the 2-faceless-years), never been on a proper date, never seen each other in person, never touched, never being in the same room physically. 7 years together virtually. 7 years of long distance relationship. And he finally came to see me end of last year (and I visited him this year).

                                                And oh, our first REAL date was at A&W Subang Jaya.

                                                So who says LDR doesn't actually work? If you've met the right person, nothing can be a factor.


                                                THE END.


                                                Anyway, since the 12th of Dec hari tu was Don's 25th birthday, I'm going to dedicate this whole post for him...walaupon dia takkan paham apa aku merepek atas tadi kan..hahahaha. 



                                                Don W. Miller II, from the first year I've seen him until now..*insert cheesy romantic music*


                                                 
                                                 
                                                 
                                                 
                                                 



                                                HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY SAYANG! I LAP U!

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                                                Tuesday, December 8, 2009

                                                Video games are like O2 to men. Tsk tsk tsk.

                                                Laying down on her comfortable bed, after a long tiring interview:

                                                Her: Sayang, I just took a pill for my headache, so I'm probably gonna pass out anytime soon..
                                                Him: Huh? Oh ok, sleep sweet baby (continues playing with his game)
                                                Her: Hun, I want to ...shdhsjdhsshweeerrew34^&*(  (saying something incoherent)

                                                No reply

                                                Her: Honeyyy, I want to uww3$%^&*u33 (incoherent sentence, I seriously don't know what I was saying LOL) 
                                                Him: What? Are you on drugs?? (obviously he was a bit annoyed)
                                                Her: Errr, yes I am

                                                *slaps head*

                                                Matiler dapat laki macam ni..
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                                                Friday, December 4, 2009

                                                Getting a job is like wishing for a skinny body, which is SO possible.

                                                Okay, I'm not sure whether I should disclose this or not because it's going to relate (read: NOT tarnish) my credibility as a professional consultant, but I suppose it's a no harm deal if I don't reveal the confidentiality part kan? And plus, where else am I going to vent?

                                                Ok I lied, I've talked about it intensively with my parents, my friend Shad and the other half. But I still feel the need to write it down! Hoping that one day in the future, when I reread it again, it's going to be a reminder of how professional and ethical and thorough and did I say professional? I can be!

                                                Haha.

                                                So you see, as in my previous post,  I mentioned  about  a job offering that not only offers good value-add, but also offers a fricking handcuffs and duct tapes to their employees upon agreement of employment!

                                                Serious shit, no kidding.

                                                No, not literally duct tapes and handcuffs lah, what you think I'm qualified to work in a brothel ke? I'm OVER qualified ok. (meaning overweight lah tu..) Hahah...

                                                Anyway, so today I went to their office to view the contract and read thoroughly and to actually inquire about any clauses that seem dubious and lawyers-jargons-like.

                                                As soon as I reached there, of course lah it's a normal thing for anyone to request for a few days before actually sign and accept the offer. Basically you'd have to read through the contract before making any decision correct? But this is a different case. I wasn't allowed to bring home the contract (or to disclose the legal binding to anyone!) and I was only given a few hours to decide.

                                                Their reasoning? Because they need me to attend a training TOMORROW, hence the rush.

                                                Excuse me? Only a few hours you said?

                                                I told them lah, it's not possible for me to decide today, because I still have to discuss it with my family first. I don't want to regret one day, for rushing a bad decision. Alas, they could not accommodate that request.

                                                Fine, first strike.

                                                After I read through (like seriously, over and over again!), I finally noticed that the whole reasoning why I wasn't suppose to disclose that contract to anyone because everyone has a different version of the contract; meaning different benefits, different compensations. I KNOW because I have a friend who was offered the SAME POSITION, the SAME COMPANY a few weeks before.

                                                So second strike.

                                                Anyway, those 2 reasons weren't enough of a justification of why I should decline the offer, because honestly, I'm pretty desperate for a job, so I was willing to let it go.

                                                Fine.

                                                While reading the whole contract, I found one clause that really-really-really made me uncomfortable. That said, in Layman's term lah ye, upon agreement I'll be legally bound to the employer for 2 years and if I were to quit for whatever reason (unless if I get sick and cannot perform) within the stipulated time, I'd have to pay the company RM20,000.

                                                Haa????????

                                                So they're going to sue me for QUITTING the job?

                                                Of course lah on their defense they said because the company will be spending a large amount of money to train you and so on and so on so it's not fair for the company if you just leave after gaining the benefits.

                                                Exactly. Benefits.

                                                Aren't benefits are supposed to be um, BENEFITS? I'm pretty sure the word "benefit" doesn't sync with "Here I'll give you a candy for free, but if you eat it you'll have to pay me 20 more candies" RIGHT?!?!?

                                                So what if I get a better offer from another company, I still have to pay RM20k because I "owe" the company for providing me all the necessary trainings for me to PERFORM and BRING BUSINESS to the company itself?!?

                                                It's just not a matter of whether I get another offer or not, but what if after working there for lets say, 6 months, and I feel that the environment or the nature of the job doesn't suit me. Should I still pay RM20k for the company because I'm not willing to continue working non-industriously hence jeopardizing the company's business?!?!

                                                I'm doing them a favor and they're still going to sue me!??!

                                                WHAT THE FUCK??

                                                You get my point or not??

                                                I think that clause is too suffocating because 2 years is a long journey from now. You never know what may happen.

                                                Third strike.

                                                But to my surprise, they were willing to remove that particular clause from the contract after listening to my justifications. Wow, so I can negotiate afterall.

                                                So they removed that part completely and gave me a newly printed contract for me to go through.

                                                I was happy, they were happy, I signed and went back to my car.

                                                ...where my mom was waiting. I gave the contract to mak and she read thoroughly again (now I know where I get my thorough-trait! Haha).

                                                She asked a lot of questions and I happily answered her because I was explained to earlier kan.

                                                Until she pointed to this one small fine writing.


                                                "I'm not allowed to join the company's clients or their competitors AFTER I quit for 12 months"

                                                What??

                                                So basically it means I'm not allowed to get a job in Malaysia (because I'm sure they have a long list of clienteles/competitors) for 12 months even after I quit working with them.

                                                ......

                                                ..........

                                                I understand if the clause only states non-disclosure of confidentialities, because well, that's normal lah, it's to protect their business entity, but having that sentence where I'm not supposed to work for a year with their clients/competitors even AFTER I quit doesn't make sense at all!!

                                                Of course lah they countered me, saying no, they won't do that, they're not really mean-spirited people where they won't actually hold their employees from joining other companies for career advancement, the whole reason of that clause is to protect their entity and leaking of information.

                                                But as to MY defense, sure we can have a mutually verbal agreement, but in the event if anything happens, their lawyers won't give a crap about verbal agreements, they'd actually use THAT  BLACK AND WHITE CLAUSE AGAINST ME.

                                                I'm not saying that I'm planning to do unethical things (giving P&C information to others, etc), but I'll be definitely breaching that whole clause for working with another company!!

                                                Then what? I'm fucked.

                                                So yadda, yadda, they even called their HR big boss to have a talk with me, haha.

                                                She regretfully said that she doesn't have the power to amend/remove that clause for me, so I regretfully told her that I'd have to withdraw.

                                                After excessive usage of "umm"s and "hmm"s, I walked out from that office for the second time, only this time empty handed.

                                                Still jobless. And tired.




                                                And so I thought that was the end of this drama too! No no no, the drama continues...

                                                A few hours later (when I was shopping with mak and sister), I received a call from one of their top management people, asking for clarification, why I've decided to reject the offer. I explained to him my situation and my thoughts of how it seems like a win-lose contract. He told me that though he has the prerogative to remove the clause, but he still needs to discuss it with the management first.

                                                Since he can't confirm whether he'll be able to remove it or not, I guess it's my call to end this mess, for the sake of everybody.

                                                I have decided to reject the job offer. Final say.


                                                The end.

                                                There you go, my first time negotiating, my first time being professionally assertive, and my first time rejecting a job offer (especially when I'm really desperate for a job!!).

                                                Now I just have to write a thank you letter for them.

                                                Ah crap.





                                                p/s: Oh sorry for the long ass post. I totally understand if you got tired half way through.
                                                p/ss: I hope I won't get into any trouble for writing this. But hey why should I la kan, I didn't mention any names! HA!
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                                                Wednesday, December 2, 2009

                                                Nak cari kerja

                                                This is really gay.

                                                I was offered a job, which I personally think has a good prospect, pretty similar to my old job (albeit the roles have been reversed) and will bring good values to me.

                                                Everything was fine and dandy.

                                                Until they mentioned a 2-year-bound contract.

                                                Uh.

                                                Apa?

                                                That completely shattered me.

                                                Sure I've applied to other agencies jugak, but so far, only this company and the other company (which I'm not really interested in THE position yang aku apply tu) yang panggil pergi interview.

                                                Yang lain dah rejek aku awal-awal.

                                                Which gets me to my other point, how would you judge someone's credibility solely based on a resume?  Maybe lah they rejected me because there are no positions available....but that doesn't make sense jugak, sebab I applied based on their advertisements.

                                                Oklah, maybe they've found another suitable candidates, but how about give others a chance for an interview? At least you'd know whether that person suits the company/job or not.

                                                Equal chance for everybody. Baru lah fair. Kan?

                                                Kalau tengok resume aku, aku rasa resume aku dah bombastik habis lah. So tak mungkin lah I was rejected sebab resume macam cikai. My philosophy is "First impression is always important" (wah, siap berfalsafah).

                                                Selalunya yang reject awal-awal ni big big companies. Tak kisah lah MNCs ke GLCs ke. Nak masuk GLC lagi teruk, mesti ada cable dalam. Aku manalah ada cable-cable ni, cable telefon ada lah.


                                                Sorry, this entry adalah semata-mata entry meluahkan perasaan, I'm a bit butthurt lah.

                                                Or perhaps, I should just apply kerja jaga stesyen minyak. Rasa-rasanya dapat tak?
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